Weaning and Sleep Train update

Everything has been going smoothly!! Graison now cries for 10 minutes tops before falling asleep.  He still wakes up wanting me in the middle of the night but I think that will be our last step to cover.  

Tonight I moved him into his room at grandmas and he cried for half a minute then stared at his fishy lamp until he fell asleep.  I had him in his own room earlier for nap and had finally had some success, he slept maybe 2-3 hours and would've kept sleeping had I not awakend him.  I am hoping tonight goes smooth and that maybe I'll get luck and he will sleep through the night. We shall see. 

As for weaning, we do not breastfeed in the day anymore. We do however breastfeed when he's trying to go back to sleep after needing me in the middle of the night.  Graisons not really huge on Binkies or bottles so I have basicly been the pacifier, idk how to go about removing that security. I've tried replacing it with the binky but to no avail he still wants me. 

In other news it's getting closer and closer to Sheydens return and I am sooo excited!!! This Sunday is my birthday and I will be 23!!!  I actually am one of those gals who looks forward to getting older, it comes with experience and knowledge and love!!! So no I'm not sad I'm turning 23 and I don't think I will be sad at 30,40,50...maybe menopause but that's normal for women lol. The only thing I'm sad about is I won't be spending my birthday, thanksgiving, or Christmas with my husband, and this year is a big Christmas year for Graison. He will be so amazed by the whole holiday!! We will be able to do it though!

I hope we have a house when we get back to Washington, as I am turning in the application by mail. I also don't want to live on base again, but it will save us lots of money and that makes me happy about it.  Well I've drawn a blank and am tired so until next time, Ta-Ta!

Weaning and Sleep Training Day 4

Last night as I was blogging, I updated about SILENCE....and silence it stayed so I sneaked into bed.  Ten minutes roll by and he starts to cry, but was able to fall back asleep.  I ended up falling asleep  around 11 and woke up between 1 and 2 am to Graison crying, I wait a little while and he did not want anything to do with CIO and laying back down, he wanted in my bed.  So obviously I cave in and get him, I allowed him a breast and he fell back to sleep.

Today there was no nap again, I want him to be taking naps as he needs it but I have no clue why he's not giving in during the day...to much activity around him maybe?  Who knows, I do put him in the same room as I do for bedtime so it shouldn't be any different.  As far as bed time tonight, we started an hour later, 10, and he only took maybe 20-30 minutes to fall asleep.  If he awakens I may try a binkie.  We shall see about him waking up in the eve of the morning again but that will be a story for tomorrow. 

Cutie Pie

Day 2's Update & Day 3

DAY 2 -

           Last night went pretty well.  Graison eventually gave into his crying and fell asleep, after about another 45 minutes of crying and mommy checking in.  I sneaked into the bathroom to take my shower and everything was peaceful...until I turned the water off.  Instant crying comes out of my room.  I continued to do my thing and he eventually fell back to sleep.  I  do not remember the time, but at some point he woke up while I was sleeping and wouldn't give back in to his crying.  Needless to say, he ended up sleeping in bed with me again and having a boob.  After going all day without breastfeeding, I figure it is fine for night time  and we can transition out.  I really dont want mastitis in result of me weaning Graison off, I understand it will be uncomfortable but still!!  All in all, I believe last night went well.

TODAY: DAY 3 -
          We went without breastfeeding again today but Graison WOULD NOT go down for nap.  I helped a friend with babysitting her 4 yr old and was at her place  so maybe it was the different scene that did it.  Still we tried, I went in and checked on  him changing a diaper in between, and still no success.  I am starting to think that checking in on him while he is crying is not the best thing.

           So, we  went without a nap.  Right now, as I update,  we are continuing our week one of living hell.  I have been able to block out the crying, but not entirely obviously as that'd be bad parenting.  I listen in and have been waiting for that exhaustion sound of where he is tired  of crying but still kind of tries to cry, yea totally hasn't happened yet.  I am thinking of checking in, but I dont want to be causing further hell for myself.  It already is as he's calling for DADA he isn't available, he's thousands of miles and a few oceans away.  THAT is the part of this process that is hurting me the most and making me more in HELL than I should be.  I absolutely love my son, love my husband, love the help available to me, but I am still ON MY OWN.

          I know Sheyden would rather be here with Graison and I experiencing, no matter how crazy he'd be, all of this sleep training/weaning process.  I know he'd be pushing past the stress and crazy to help me find some kind of relief as I am the sole comfort Graison is used to.  We definitely are going to be doing things slightly different with our future children,  but hey  isn't that why we go through this as parents with our first child?  I am always trying to see/find the positive out of everything that should be stressing me out or any situation that has started or turned sour.  Maybe that's why I can stay so calm right now and have been calm from the beginning.  I have no clue, but I know that in stressful times I am able to keep my cool fairly easily, just dont piss me off while I'm doing so.

        UPDATE: I am not entirely sure, but as I am typing I all of a sudden hear..........SILENCE!!  CROSSING FINGERS IN HOPES THAT TONIGHT HE WILL NOT NEED TO SLEEP IN MY BED!!  Probably still going to happen though.  All  I can continue on with though is how much I love my son and all the hopes I wish for him each day and in the future.  I know that this experience will be good for us in the end and help us to prepare for growing our family and also to give us good backbone to how we help our children to grow.  I just really wish that my husband was here to do this with me, but I appreciate his service as a new veteran still active duty and deployed.  I know he is gone to support us and to provide for us and although I'd like to change things and have him here, I am glad he's doing the best he can for us. Sheyden is hero and my heart and  I would never trade him for anything.  He is the best of myself and  I wouldn't be whole without him.

Monday's Sleep Training

So I'm going to adjust my sleep training days. Today I am considering it to be my Day 2 of sleep training and weaning. After yesterday's experience, I am overwhelmed by how today is supposed to have gone. 

Yesterday, we (Graison and I) experienced NO NAP.  We tried the "Cry It Out" method, we tried a bottle with warm milk. He FINALLY fell to sleep...or so I thought.  He slept maybe 20 minutes total and woke up. I went to see if he was going to fall back asleep (now thinking I jumped the gun) and HE FLIPPED OUT!!  So I left the room and tried again.  Long story short, I ended up getting him and holding him in the rocker to comfort him, then went back upstairs to watch football with uncle Ryan and aunt Stephanie while I did homework.  

When it came to bedtime, we started all over. I had high hopes thinking he would be exhausted from not nappin, crying, playing, and eating. We even started a routine for bed: eat, play it off, bath, read, bed.  This time we skipped the milk and ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE! To shorten the story again, he ended up CIO with intervals of me comforting for about an hour with no success. I ended up having to hold and rock him to sleep, with his death grip around my neck and face close to mine. Don't get me wrong that part was the sweetest thing, but it also broke my heart.  I had already cried earlier at nap so I wasn't going to give in again. Once he was asleep, I tried laying him in his bed but he startled. So instead, I decided he could lay with me. We went all day without boob, until about 3-4 AM today.  I figured it's fine since we went all day without a feed and this little morning feed was basically to go back to sleep. That and I don't want to get mastitis that would effin suck! Excuse my language. 

So hopefully tonight will be awesome and things will go well, I will update as soon as I can.  On another note, IM AN AUNTIE!!! My brother in law and his girlfriend (Ryan and Stephanie) are pregnant.  I knew since Friday, but we went today for an ultrasound thinking she was maybe 8 weeks and found out she is 17 WEEKS!!! We couldn't believe it!  They may also be having a girl, but won't know for sure until the next US.  Being that it maybe in 3-5 weeks I think it's safe to say little whosit is a princess Isabella Noelle Turner👑. I'm going with Steph to meet her doctor tomorrow!