DAY 2 -
Last night went pretty well. Graison eventually gave into his crying and fell asleep, after about another 45 minutes of crying and mommy checking in. I sneaked into the bathroom to take my shower and everything was peaceful...until I turned the water off. Instant crying comes out of my room. I continued to do my thing and he eventually fell back to sleep. I do not remember the time, but at some point he woke up while I was sleeping and wouldn't give back in to his crying. Needless to say, he ended up sleeping in bed with me again and having a boob. After going all day without breastfeeding, I figure it is fine for night time and we can transition out. I really dont want mastitis in result of me weaning Graison off, I understand it will be uncomfortable but still!! All in all, I believe last night went well.
TODAY: DAY 3 -
We went without breastfeeding again today but Graison WOULD NOT go down for nap. I helped a friend with babysitting her 4 yr old and was at her place so maybe it was the different scene that did it. Still we tried, I went in and checked on him changing a diaper in between, and still no success. I am starting to think that checking in on him while he is crying is not the best thing.
So, we went without a nap. Right now, as I update, we are continuing our week one of living hell. I have been able to block out the crying, but not entirely obviously as that'd be bad parenting. I listen in and have been waiting for that exhaustion sound of where he is tired of crying but still kind of tries to cry, yea totally hasn't happened yet. I am thinking of checking in, but I dont want to be causing further hell for myself. It already is as he's calling for DADA he isn't available, he's thousands of miles and a few oceans away. THAT is the part of this process that is hurting me the most and making me more in HELL than I should be. I absolutely love my son, love my husband, love the help available to me, but I am still ON MY OWN.
I know Sheyden would rather be here with Graison and I experiencing, no matter how crazy he'd be, all of this sleep training/weaning process. I know he'd be pushing past the stress and crazy to help me find some kind of relief as I am the sole comfort Graison is used to. We definitely are going to be doing things slightly different with our future children, but hey isn't that why we go through this as parents with our first child? I am always trying to see/find the positive out of everything that should be stressing me out or any situation that has started or turned sour. Maybe that's why I can stay so calm right now and have been calm from the beginning. I have no clue, but I know that in stressful times I am able to keep my cool fairly easily, just dont piss me off while I'm doing so.
UPDATE: I am not entirely sure, but as I am typing I all of a sudden hear..........SILENCE!! CROSSING FINGERS IN HOPES THAT TONIGHT HE WILL NOT NEED TO SLEEP IN MY BED!! Probably still going to happen though. All I can continue on with though is how much I love my son and all the hopes I wish for him each day and in the future. I know that this experience will be good for us in the end and help us to prepare for growing our family and also to give us good backbone to how we help our children to grow. I just really wish that my husband was here to do this with me, but I appreciate his service as a new veteran still active duty and deployed. I know he is gone to support us and to provide for us and although I'd like to change things and have him here, I am glad he's doing the best he can for us. Sheyden is hero and my heart and I would never trade him for anything. He is the best of myself and I wouldn't be whole without him.
Last night went pretty well. Graison eventually gave into his crying and fell asleep, after about another 45 minutes of crying and mommy checking in. I sneaked into the bathroom to take my shower and everything was peaceful...until I turned the water off. Instant crying comes out of my room. I continued to do my thing and he eventually fell back to sleep. I do not remember the time, but at some point he woke up while I was sleeping and wouldn't give back in to his crying. Needless to say, he ended up sleeping in bed with me again and having a boob. After going all day without breastfeeding, I figure it is fine for night time and we can transition out. I really dont want mastitis in result of me weaning Graison off, I understand it will be uncomfortable but still!! All in all, I believe last night went well.
TODAY: DAY 3 -
We went without breastfeeding again today but Graison WOULD NOT go down for nap. I helped a friend with babysitting her 4 yr old and was at her place so maybe it was the different scene that did it. Still we tried, I went in and checked on him changing a diaper in between, and still no success. I am starting to think that checking in on him while he is crying is not the best thing.
So, we went without a nap. Right now, as I update, we are continuing our week one of living hell. I have been able to block out the crying, but not entirely obviously as that'd be bad parenting. I listen in and have been waiting for that exhaustion sound of where he is tired of crying but still kind of tries to cry, yea totally hasn't happened yet. I am thinking of checking in, but I dont want to be causing further hell for myself. It already is as he's calling for DADA he isn't available, he's thousands of miles and a few oceans away. THAT is the part of this process that is hurting me the most and making me more in HELL than I should be. I absolutely love my son, love my husband, love the help available to me, but I am still ON MY OWN.
I know Sheyden would rather be here with Graison and I experiencing, no matter how crazy he'd be, all of this sleep training/weaning process. I know he'd be pushing past the stress and crazy to help me find some kind of relief as I am the sole comfort Graison is used to. We definitely are going to be doing things slightly different with our future children, but hey isn't that why we go through this as parents with our first child? I am always trying to see/find the positive out of everything that should be stressing me out or any situation that has started or turned sour. Maybe that's why I can stay so calm right now and have been calm from the beginning. I have no clue, but I know that in stressful times I am able to keep my cool fairly easily, just dont piss me off while I'm doing so.
UPDATE: I am not entirely sure, but as I am typing I all of a sudden hear..........SILENCE!! CROSSING FINGERS IN HOPES THAT TONIGHT HE WILL NOT NEED TO SLEEP IN MY BED!! Probably still going to happen though. All I can continue on with though is how much I love my son and all the hopes I wish for him each day and in the future. I know that this experience will be good for us in the end and help us to prepare for growing our family and also to give us good backbone to how we help our children to grow. I just really wish that my husband was here to do this with me, but I appreciate his service as a new veteran still active duty and deployed. I know he is gone to support us and to provide for us and although I'd like to change things and have him here, I am glad he's doing the best he can for us. Sheyden is hero and my heart and I would never trade him for anything. He is the best of myself and I wouldn't be whole without him.
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